Sunday, October 30, 2011

some thoughts.....

i read this on a friend's blog (thanks christal!), and it was so touching to me and exactly what i needed to hear.

Parents, remember that now is your opportunity; you may feel yourself harassed as you struggle through the days with an unruly child, but you are living the happiest and the most golden years of your life. As you tuck them into their beds at night, please be kind to them. Let them hear a kind voice amid all the angry, vile voices that they will hear throughout life. Let there be an anchor to which these little ones can turn when all else fails. The Lord help you so to do.
-Harold B. Lee

i thought of the blessing that it is to be able to tuck your children into their bed at nights and to be the one who can calm their racing heart and that feeling of them snuggling up with their head on your shoulder, and i was just overwhelmed with gratitude for the blessing of motherhood. i'm not always a kind mother. i sometimes lose my temper. i am short and impatient when there's no reason to be, and i'm so imperfect. today though, i'm going to be kinder and more patient and give one extra snuggle here and there, and i'm going to soak up my little ones while i can. i want to be that kind voice and that anchor for my boys, and i'm just so thankful for such wise words to live by :) find a way to put them up on my fridge to remind me of my sacred responsibility every day.

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one more story/thought from the same wise friend's blog......

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine
son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had
passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

LOVE this story and the reminder to search for blessings in our lives and to recognize them and to give gratitude for them. we are so blessed, and i'm just so thankful for our little life and all of the people in it! happy blessingful sunday everyone :)

Monday, October 24, 2011

just me

sometimes, i just like blogging about something other than the amazing and cute and awesome boys in my life, and this 10 on tuesday fad gives me a great excuse to do just that, so here we go!

1. i could eat cereal for every meal of the day, especially if i had fresh blueberries, strawberries, and bananas to put on top. vector, honey bunches of oats, alpha-bets, cinnamo cheerios, mmmmm!

2. i think our landlord thinks that my garment top/tank top morning combo is an actual outfit. he's seen me hanging laundry and come to the door and seen me before i could run and get a shirt. oops! not sure if that's bad or not, but such is statia life!

3. i miss movies and movie popcorn. there is no theatre and no movie rental place here, but we still get all the trailers and hear the reviews! i guess it'll be fun to catch up one day.....

4. purple seems to be our family color. it's beckam's favorite color. dust picked it for our keyboard cover and it's the color of one of my favorite shirts of his, and it's my favorite toe nail polish color. maddox loves it by default :)

5. the next movie i'm going to watch when the tv goes out or when there's nothing else on is teenage mutant ninja turtles - the movie, and i can't wait! i remember being so excited when i got it for christmas years and years ago, and i just love it! haha

6. i'm dying for a good fall day - raking leaves, wearing jeans, carving pumpkins, making corn chowder and biscuits for dinner, etc. i love my island life, but i love my fall season too!

7. i kinda feel like i'm ready for baby #3, but i feel like i should be crazy to feel like that too. hmmmm......

8. why does time always feel like it's going soooo slow when you look ahead but seems to fly by when you look back?!?!

9. i was near tears the other day while i was watching a barney christmas movie with beckam. the songs were making me homesick for christmas, and i'm already sad that we won't be around our amazing families for that bestest time of year :( i'm also super excited about making our own statia christmas memories and starting our little tolman traditions though!

10. i feel kinda self-conscious doing a blog about me and my thoughts. weird how you just become mom and forget about the you before that. it's kinda nice to reminisce every once in a while though :)

Sunday, October 23, 2011

"quiet time"

transitioning from 3 naps to 2 or 2 naps to 1 wasn't my favorite thing to do. beckam was always tired and cranky while we tried to figure it out, but this 1 to none thing is kinda fun! beckam still needs sleep but is starting to think he's outgrown naps. for fun, we've called naps "quiet time" a few times, and i love going in to find this.....

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movie still playing, drool down the side of his cheek, teddy graham crumbs on the bed, and right out of it! naps, quiet time - still the same thing around here, and i love it! nothing better than a sleeping baby :)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

chicken day!

statia has made me appreciate many things i took for granted at home, and one of the big ones is CHICKEN!!! most of the yummy meals i made at home seemed to center around chicken, so it's been interesting to take that aspect out of meal planning as you just never know about the meat around here! we were told early on that some stores turn the fridges/freezers off at night to save electricity, and even when you take a risk and get some "good" chicken, it's tough and just not the same.

this though........mmmmmmmmmm. on saturdays, there are some people who ship legitimate chicken over from st. maarten and bbq it up, and it's sooooo good! we call it chicken day, and it's pretty freakin awesome! the kids play at the park while.....

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we get our chicken on! they also have johnny cakes, and it's just a pretty yummy happy chicken day when saturday rolls around!

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moral of the story......enjoy and appreciate your chicken people :)

Friday, October 21, 2011


I am going to be honest with you....I don't remember a lot about our big day back 5 years ago on October 21, 2006. I don't remember what we ate, what the decorations looked like or even what was really said in the course of the day. What I do remember and what will always remain with me is the first time I saw lynz in her wedding dress. I had just changed and the temple workers had asked me to sit and wait for my new bride. I sat and sat and sat and as Brad Paisley says "was waiting on a woman" but let me tell was well worth it!!!!! She walked out in her amazing wedding dress and my jaw just dropped. She looked absolutely beautiful!!!!! I will never forget how I felt when I saw her and we grabbed hands and walked out as a Husband and Wife ready to begin a life full of memories and experiences that would continue the process of binding us together as an eternal family. How grateful I am for Lynz and for the past 5 years we have had together!!!

I thought it fitting that on our 5 year anniversary I would do a 5-0n-5. 5 things that I love, respect, adore, and admire about my friend. Here it goes:

1. She is the most strong-willed and determined woman I have ever known. When Lynz sets her mind to something she does it wholeheartedly. Recently she has been doing Zumba 2x/week and running in the mornings at 6am 3x/week. She has done awesome!!! I am inspired by her dedication and her will to do what she has said she would do. Not long ago when we were living in Portland, Lynz had told me she wanted to run a 10k. She began running on the treadmill at the complex where we were living and that continued for a good while. I came home from school one day and lynz was home and so excited to tell me about her day. The first thing she told me was that she had run 10k on the treadmill that day. I was so proud of her and impressed by her doing what she actually said she was going to do. That's why I love her today :)

2. She is an amazing mom and wife. I know that is the token answer of a lot of husbands when asked what they love about their wives but I feel like I have gotten a glimpse of a different side of Lynz as a mom and wife on this tiny island of Statia where we are living. A lot of people think....oh man they are living in Caribbean while Dust is in school, how hard can life be. Well, its fun living on a remote island for the first week as everything is new and exciting. After the honeymoon phase wears off the realization hits that...we do live on a island and my husband is in school 6 days a week for most of the day and there is very little to do besides the beach. Lynz has done an amazing job compensating for the lack of things to do by being creative with the boys in the things they do around the house and the I have seen an increase of patience and love towards them and me. She has an ability to turn any situation into the best it can possibly be and that rubs off on me and the boys. She definitely sets the tone in our home and I have realized that more and more as we have lived in Statia. That's why I love her today :)

3. The quote "don't pass judgement on someone until you have walked a mile in their shoes" can be applied perfectly to Lynz. We at times have difference of opinions and as she has taught me...that is a good thing in a marriage. When those moments do come up whether in a discussion we are having or in any number of situations, lynz tries to step back from the situation and stand in the other persons shoes. She tries to understand the other point of view. She doesn't rush to judgement or refuse to move from what she is saying. She considers everything and is one of the most compassionate and caring people I know. She honestly wants to understand someone else and you can see that and feel that when those moments come up. She is a "true" friend to me, the boys and so many others. This extends to the forgiving nature that she has. She has a pure heart, one that I truly believe sees the good in everyone and everything. She has a way of making you feel like you matter and that she loves you unconditionally no matter the circumstances. That's why I love her today :)

4. Freak....I wish I would have learned to play the piano!!! Every time I see Lynz play the piano I am jealous that she has that talent. I don't know if she knows this but I love instrumental piano music. I could listen to it for hours and hours. Her parents used to have a piano and I loved it when she would just sit down and start playing. One of the things I look forward to the most is one day having a piano in our home. I want her to teach the boys to play and who knows...maybe one day ME!!! Her favorite thing to play are hymns and I look forward to the day when on a Sunday morning she can sit down at the piano and play some hymns or the boys can. Music has an unbelievable way of changing the mood of a day or a moment and I am grateful that lynz has that talent. That's why I love her today :)

5. I don't know why I notice this but Lynz has great feet...Nice looking toes that are always painted some jazzy color. Not much more to say about this one....she has taught me to appreciate the small painted toe-nails. that's why I love her today :)


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Thursday, October 20, 2011

half a decade

this happened 5 years ago believe it or not, and i can safely say that i'm wrapping up the best 5 years of my life today and that i can't wait for the next eternity i get to spend with my dust!


we have had soooooo many good times together, and he really is my bestest friend in the whole wide world!


we've had so much fun eating out, snowboarding, bridge jumping, white water rafting, egg rolling, skeet shooting, sun burning, puddle jumping, and snorkeling together.


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i am so thankful for my friend. when i think about the things i love and appreciate about him, the list seems endless. he is so so good to me and the most amazing dad, and he makes me want to be a better wife, friend, mom, and person.

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he encourages me to ilghten up (which i need oh so badly sometimes) and finds the good in every situation. he is so positive and the hardest worker of anyone i know. he has such a strong testimony and such a special relationship with the Savior, and i'm so thankful for the priesthood he holds and the way he leads our family.

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he is my rock in every situation, and i'm so proud of him. we have lived in 5 houses and 3 countries and we have the most awesome boys and can't wait to add to this crazy little family one day. sometimes, we joke about life before kids and how awesome it was, but we have loved every step of our adventures over the last 5 years, and we can't wait for the adventures that lay ahead! sometimes, it's a little scary to not know where we're going to end up or what's going to happen next, but we have each other and as cheesy as it sounds, that's really all that matters to me!

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i love you more than ever friend, and just thank you for being you and choosing me! happy half a decade to you and love you forever and ever :)

Saturday, October 8, 2011

perfect beach day!

i know that this blog will see many a beach pictures over the next year or so, but we had the most perfect beach day the other day, and i actually brought my camera to prove it!

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it took us a while, but we've got the beach down now. the boys love it and could stay for hours. maddox doesn't eat the sand anymore. beckam isn't scared of the water touching his toes. we bought some beach toys. i've learned to bring juice and snacks for the ride home to keep the peace. i've also learned to bring a bottle of water to rinse off our toes, and we just LOVE the beach!

beckam explores around with pearl and loves jumping in the waves. him and maddox still get rocked by a big one every now and again, but such is beach life!
ps - thank you to lianna for rescuing maddie here while i took pictures of him getting trashed by another big wave!

me and my beach bum girls :)

me and my beach bum boys!

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i already feel sad that we only have 14 months left to enjoy this little beach life over here, and i can't wait for our families to come beach it up with us :) there is nothing better than a perfect beach day with my boys!