the calm before the storm

beckam's heart surgery is coming up this friday, and he's not allowed to have any cold type symptoms or they won't operate, so my parents were kind, patient, and crazy enough to drive down to portland last saturday and then drive back to canada with me and the boys on sunday to leave the portland sickness behind and to help dust focus on his 11 finals! it was a long trip through the night, and i eventually gave in and let becks sleep on the floor, and my arm was sore from rocking mad's car seat to keep him calm, but we made it!

we've been doing a lot of relaxing since we got home, and papa and nana can't get enough time with their little becks and mads. they've been picking strawberries......





and feeding the horses.....



and playing at the park.......


and mowing the lawn......


and playing with play-doh and just having tons of fun :)



papa's phantom of the opera reenactment didn't go over so swell! becks was a little nervous about that white mask and was all done with the play-doh after that!


beckam loves his grandparents and loves nash and the kitty and this huge house to run around in. he has endless cupboards and rooms and closets to explore, and he's not around anyone who's sick! it's been pretty chill (as kris would say), and it's been a great week - lots of treats and barney and playing and running and jumping and fun - the calm before the storm as i like to say.



i'm not gonna lie, i'm quite nervous about his surgery. i'm not scared that he's going to die or that anything will go wrong, i'm just nervous about how it will affect him. i'm sad that he has to have his chest cut open and be hooked up to all sorts of tubes and wires. i hate that he has to spend 7-10 days in a place that he's so terrified of, and i'm sad that we have to tame our fun, crazy, totally boyish, active little man down to let the scars heal and to help his heart work at top notch again. i'm just simply not looking forward to it.

 

with all of that said though, i'm really trying to be positive, and this little face makes it a lot easier :) i'll be all about making the hospital a fun place for becks, and i'll watch as many barney shows as he wants, and i'll be there every night to sing him to sleep and to hold his hand. i'm so thankful that his heart will be fixed, and i know that this will all be worth it, and i know it will all work out just exactly how it's supposed to work out. i can't help but smile every time i see beckam's strawberry blonde hair and his quirky little run and his 1 legged jump and his huge happy smile, and that's all that matters! here he is showing me his heart :)


thanks to everyone sending prayers and thoughts our way. we are so thankful and so is this little man! we will keep you updated!