just tricks

just tricks!!! no storm, no surgery, no scar, no ICU, just a fun trip home and a just tricks open heart surgery! becks had his pre-admissions clinic on thursday this past week with surgery scheduled for friday. we went in and met everyone that was going to be involved. becks had at least 4 different people listen to his chest and give him 5 when he cooperated. then, he had his ECG and echo, and he was such a trooper. he laid on the ultrasound table for 1 1/2 hours while the tech got all the pictures he needed, and it turns out those pictures turned everything around.


the doctor saw us in the hall on our way back from the PICU tour and told the nurse to hold the blood work and x-rays because he wasn't very impressed with the echo findings - as in the hole in beck's heart didn't seem big enough to justify open heart surgery. we went back to our waiting room and soon found out that the hole had closed a little since beck's last appt giving the doctor reason to believe that beckam's little body might just accomplish what an open heart surgery would on its own. so basically, we're waiting - waiting and hoping that the hole continues to close on its own! we left the hospital at that point,and it was kind of a blur for dust and me. we experienced every emotion in the book. we felt frustrated and mad almost - it was really annoying to prepare for this emotionally and mentally and to center our break and our lives around this surgery and to have my parents drive to portland to pick us up in order to keep becks healthy and then to have the surgery cancelled just like that. i just wished we could have found out earlier, and i almost felt let down.


on the other hand, the overwhelming feeling was of gratitude and relief - gratitude for the many thoughts and prayers sent our way and for the doctors who were so thorough and care so much about beckam and his future and for our healthy beckam boo who didn't know it but escaped a torturous week of nurses, tubes, medicine, hospital food, and everything associated with open heart surgery. such a blessing. i've never felt so loved as i heard about people calling lace back in portland to check up on us and as i had so many friends contact me through facebook sharing their excitement about the cancelled surgery and writing words of comfort. what an amazing experience :)

we had so much fun with the tolmans and are sooo thankful for their hospitality and support through our up and down trip to edmonton. beckam loved raustin and bartholomew, alaina's new cats. i'm not so sure how they felt about him, but they were good sports! he also loved his hot tub time with grandpa and dad and our trip to west ed that was meant to let loose and have some good active fun before his surgery! haha

 

 

 

 

maddox loved all of the attention he got on our trip home. our chunky, smiley, little monkey seems keeps growing up more and more. we can't get enough of his smiles these days, and no....he hasn't slowed down at all food-wise. can you tell?!?!? haha

 

 

 

have i mentioned how fun it is to have 2 boys? i love my becks and mads, and i love how much they love each other too. maddox will smile when he hears beckam's voice on the other side of the room, and beckam won't go down for a nap or bed without giving his little brother a kiss. so stinkin cute :)

 

we are so thankful to have our strawberry lovin, happy, scar-free, goofy little man away from the hospital. his heart will continue to be monitored of course, but we are sure hoping that the hole continues to close and that he keeps growing up strong and healthy like he has been!

 

i know it wasn't my husband's amazing chiropractic adjustments that closed that little hole (even though becks loves to play chiropractor), and i also know that the many prayers sent up on our behalf have to be the reason that we are back here in portland early with no looming surgery on the horizon. beckam is so happy to be home, and we are so happy to be saved from the stress, fear, and exhaustion involved with the surgery that was supposed to happen. thank you thank you thank you!!! you will never know how much your love and support has meant, and the difference that it made was life-changing!

 

now......on to live as normal! yay :)