those moments....

you know those moments when you look down at your beautiful, hilarious, studly, amazing little man and just love life? you know those moments when you look down at that same child and feel like it was just yesterday that they were all swaddled up snoozing in your arms? you know those moments when you're thankful to be the one that child needs when they're sad and wants when it's time to have fun? you know those moments when your heart breaks for that same little one who has to get a super scary kinda major surgery in a few shorts weeks and has no idea? ya....welcome to my life lately!

 

beck's surgery is scheduled for sept 24th which means we're almost 3 weeks away! i'm getting nervous and dread it more and more every day, but i know that everything will be completely fine and that he'll be all fixed up and better at the same time. it's just so sad to see that glowing completly contagious and awesome little smile and to feel so helpless in protecting him from the crappy thing that i know is coming his way. as moms, we just want to protect and see our kiddies happy, and i just have to hang on to the picture of the future where his little heart is fixed and where i don't have to worry about the what if's when i see that beautiful little smile :) then, i feel good about my protected happy little man!

 

anyway..... he is getting so big, and i've never loved being a mom as much as i have the last little bit! maddox is dust's and my baby without a doubt with his little chubby cheeks, and he's finally figuring out sleep which is heavenly, and becks just brings joy to my life every day :) he thinks he's so big and so cool and such a stud, especially when it's shaving time with dad! check out the focus - haha!

 

 

he's slowly making the transition to his big bed, and here he is the 1st time he actually took a nap in it. can't believe my becks sleeps in a big boy bed! (almost anyway)

 

he also likes to pick out his own snacks after searching every inch of the cupboards to make sure i'm not hiding any treats :)

 

 

and then he settles in for more.....barney! i've tried disney movies and other cartoons but nothing does it for this kid like barney and the wiggles. oh the joys of motherhood!

 

i've been slow to teach beckam how to feed himself cuz i kinda like clean kids and carpet, but he loves when i let him go at it with a spoon or fork and is pretty good with the fork anyway!

 

becks is a tooth brushing fool these days! when he can't find the stool, maddox's bathtub does the trick, and he'd stay there all day with the tap running if i let him. so cute!

 

oh and did i mention we got a van? what the hay is all i can say. never thought i'd see the day but there it is parked in our spot! becks loves the dvd player, and i love that i can change a diaper without pulling over on our 16 hour road trip home in a few weeks, so good nerdy van times around here :)